I need to pay more attention to my poor neglected blog. This is how I was with my journals growing up too. When I was really young I would actually write an apology into the journal for letting it get lonely. I've always personified just about everything around me...everything has energy, that's all anything is. We are The objects around us are The people who touch them are The information they receive are The fluid energy of life...this is too deep and improper for today and it's getting out of hand!
In an effort to get back into the habit, I'm just going to kind of go off on what's in my head...randomness here I come!
Look at the sky today. It holds us all where we need to be. Watch the stars in the afternoon, just not the nearest, please. They're still there, even when we can't see them, and as far as I can guess, the smallest thought sent to the furthest star is what fills it with more than heat and gas. Maybe thought energy travels so fast that the next person who forms an impression of that celestial body will be imparted with a bit of that thought-energy. Why not?
I changed my blog design...it's pretty nice, but I wanted a couple other ones instead- humorously whimsical ones like the crazy dog chasing the butterflies across the pink linen or the bumble bees and the bear, but they allowed only the narrowest area for blog content and that will not do.
Have you ever wanted something SO bad that it literally hurt? Heart-breaking hurt? You know you'll hopefully probably get what you want, but you have to WAIT for it, and go through a PROCESS instead of jumping right in and you can't imagine how you can wait a few minutes, let alone weeks to get what you want. I'm there. The days are so long because I either can't fall sleep or wake up early and can't get back to sleep, then every half second awake is spent thinking about how amazing it will be to finally get what I want, so I am the least productive person in the multi-verse right now. Oh, what? You want to know? I'll just say we are in escrow and let you fill in the rest.
But there's more. I am in love. Trees, fresh air, LAKES, trails, kamikaze squirrels, birds, winding roads I feel like I know by heart, deer to eat all those pesky flowers, seasons, waterfalls, carnivorous geese, snow, boating, camping, hiking, new-to-me plants, exploring, adventure, freedom to fearlessly leave my home without a car, raising my kids in all of this, learning how to live somewhere new...all of it! I need it so bad I feel like I'm crumbling every second i'm not there. It's killer too because extra cash is non-existent right now so I can't make the 1 1/2 hour drive up there for exploring. I can't wait till I only can't afford to go to the valley.
Yard sale! I need to research this. How silly! To research yard sales, but I have no idea, I've never had one before and we need to plan one for the next couple weeks.
Well, I'm winding down now. I'll try to do this a little more often...aka "Dear Journal, I'm SO sorry for neglecting you! I'm sure you are wondering what happened with...blahblahblah yeah. ;)
Sunshine boy update- his new "lovey" is a plastic push-button guitar that's only about half his size...He must have it in his hands most hours of the day, including breastfeeding and naps...and most naps are on me (I know, I know, get over it...that's how we roll) while he breastfeeds and now there's this new chunky element involved, so I get all kinds of new bruises. THANKS AUNTIE HEATHER!!! ;) He's also walking most of the time now and laughing maniacally...SO his Father's son!